Okay...I've realized a few things. One of them being that I'm quite a poser, I pretend all the time. And I start to become different, I change weird things about myself to please people. For example I never liked converse they were just shoes to me, but then there was a person in my life who I wanted to impress that loved them and...now I wear them almost every day. I actually do like them now, but the way that it started was not how it should have been.
The point being that I'm worried about what or who I actually am in comparison to what/who I've made myself into for other people. I'm starting to question what I like and what I'm good at